“A MOTHER’S CONFESSION: a song with footnotes”. a new song…thing.

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(public post….$3+ patrons, watch for a unique email/post in a second with your PDF & choice of WAV or MP3! note to $3+ patrons: the PDF is almost identical to the contents of the project page, plus a little thank-you at the start)


NEW THING TIME! that was fast, eh? yes, it was. i wrote this song exactly two weeks ago, on the 11th.

NOTE: the bowie-thing already dropped this month, so this is the first time i’m releasing TWO THINGS in the same month. that means if you’ve capped your pledge (which i know *many* of you have, and good on you for using that feature), you won’t be charged for this one.


the link to the song/project/footnotes is at the bottom of this post.

i’ll try not to go overboard here…i already spent the last 48 hours writing up the document of footnotes (it’s 8,000 effing words…to put that in perspective, that’s almost one-tenth the length of “the art of asking”)…and the footnotes tell you just about everything you could ever, ever want to know (and much more, i’m sorry) about the creation of this project.


if you’re at work, WAIT FOR A QUIET MOMENT! this betch is 11 minutes long! it needs you in the bath with wine! but i won’t tell you what to do. just listen undistracted, if you can.

headphones..not as important as the bowie, but always nice.

i mention it somewhere in the footnotes (which are, in turns, hilarious but also really serious) but there’s a point i’d like to make here so it doesn’t get lost: motherhood frightened me for a long time. i was wondering how i would juggle being a parent and making Things. i do not consider it a coincidence that the birth of my patreon and the birth of my child came at the same time. it’s working! it’s WORKING.

i’ve always been able to juggle but often i’ve stumbled when i’ve juggled due to the rocky, unsure ground of bureaucracy, middlemen, the media….

now, with patreon, my ability to work fast has meant that i can juggle with a lot of power…..i’m on flat, sure ground. i can just DO MY SHIT.

for that: THANK YOU. you cannot understand the gift you are giving this artist and mother.

meanwhile: if you’re a patron scratching your head skeptically and wondering if i’ve decided to throw out all of my song-edited skills and am just going to be barraging you constantly with 11-minute totally-literal songs with 5 chords: the answer is NO.

the answer is, i’m a maximalist. i want space for EVERYTHING. the song i recorded with jherek in january (“machete”) still hasn’t come out (next month! wait for it!) because we are POLISHING IT and editing and mastering and tweaking and fixing.

the album i made with my dad SIX MONTHS AGO (!) when i was 8 months pregnant hasn’t come out either…i’m going to drop it this summer, after we’ve created a video and when we have time to do a little tour.


the answer is: i want to reserve the right to do projects lightening-fast and molasses-slow, because NOT ALL ART IS THE SAME.

to everything, turn, turn turn.

the beauty of the patreon is that IF i want to write a track and put it out  it a week later (like my hip-hop comrades), i CAN.

and look, I JUST DID.

*mic drop*

wait, let me pick up that mic for a second so i can give you my link.

sorry, i’m not actually very hip-hop. i’m actually a huge dork.

here it is, ENJOY:


(again, if you’re a $3+ patron, you’ve got a second email with a PDF of the footnotes and the mp3/WAV downloads coming your way in a sec!)

if you love it, share it. if it resonates, share it. share your stories on the page.

it’s just me and you, guys. this is a new kind of Thing.

for advanced helpers….when you share, PLEASE USE THIS LINK IF POSSIBLE you’ll have to copy and paste: http://bit.ly/amothersconfession

LASTLY, especially for the parents out there….

if you have feelings/thoughts/stories…PLEASE COMMENT on the page itself instead of here at patreon. it’ll be nice to gather all the stories in one place, and not everybody can comment on the patreon since it’s paywalled. use the comments here to talk backstage shop, and the comment space on http://amandapalmer.net to talk about the content. that’d be nice.

i love you guys.




p.s.s.  your patronage covers the basics of jason’s engineering and direct sounds, but the bulk of it on a project like this goes to my team, who helped me get this whole project and webpage together. HUGE THANKS to alex, bill, superkate and nick for being ninjas and working so fast and smart with me. and special thanks to neil for proofreading, and to jason for being jason. my soul sister. without him i would not have written this song. or recorded it.


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